I love you ..

“ Just to say I love you never seems enough. I’ve said it so many times.
I’m afraid you wont understand what I really mean when I say it. How can so
much feeling, so much adoration possibly fit into those three little words.
But until I find some other way of saying how I feel,
then “I Love You” will have to do. So no matter how
many times I say it, never take it lightly. ”

Tell me I’m not making a mistake

“ Tell me I’m not making a mistake. Tell me that you’re worth the wait,
that you’re always going to be here.
 Make me believe that I’m making the right decision by still holding on.
Show me that you’re going to be around. ”

Sometimes when I look at you ..

 

“ Sometimes when I look at you, and you’re looking back at me, I can see something. This hint of something more, something you’re feeling but can’t say. When our eyes meet, it’s like we’re instantly connected.
And I know no one catches it but me and you, but I like it that way. It’s like our own little secret, a place we go to when everything around us is crazy and we just need some semblance of normal. God, your eyes are gorgeous. There are times when I want nothing more than to look you in the eyes, cause it’s when
we’re looking at each other in silence that we end up saying the most. ”

I want to love, and be loved.

“ I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep,  and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved. ”
— Shana Abe

Forgiveness is all I ask.

 

 

Thanks to those who hated me, you made me a stronger person
Thanks to those who loved me, you made my heart bigger
Thanks to those who envied me, you made my self esteem grow
Thanks to those who cared, you made me feel important
Thanks to those who worried, you let me know that some of you actually care
Thanks to those who left, you showed me that not everything is forever
Thanks to those who stayed, you showed me the meaning of persistence and love
Thanks to those who entered my life, you made me who I am today.. 

And 

Forgive my insecurities. I want to be perfect, but it usually doesn’t happen the way I’d like it to.
Forgive my insecurities. At times I am hypocritical and my own worst critic. I do not mean to push my expectations of myself upon you.
Forgive my insecurities. I seek affirmation because I am insecure. My life has not been easy and I do not always handle the effects of life in the best way.
Forgive my insecurities. Sometimes I do not understand the way I feel and I cannot put a name on my emotions. I just exist.
Forgive my insecurities. I was born with a certain personality and I cannot change who I am. I try to morph my faults into attributes but I often fail. I want to be cool and fun but who I am gets in the way.
Forgive my insecurities. I am human. I must deal with this fact daily. Every morning I pray I do not screw up and make a fool out of myself.
Forgive my insecurities. I have been let down and harbor a huge fear of letting you down.
Forgive my insecurities. I am a work in progress. I am always changing, attempting to become a better person, but I don’t always know who I am and where I stand.
Forgive my insecurities. I need to be loved and held. I do not mean to be clingy. Sometimes, for an unknown reason, I feel worthless and unwanted. I just want to know differently.
Forgive my insecurities. Sometimes my brain works faster then my tongue and my words don’t come out right and I feel stupid. Sometimes my tongue works faster then my brain and I say stupid things.
Forgive my insecurities. I am not very good at accurately expressing myself. Some things I do or say may come across as something other then what I mean.
Forgive my insecurities. I care very much about you but I do not want to be nosy or overbearing. I am always trying to walk the line.
Forgive my insecurities. I want to help but sometimes I end up hurting you. I do not want to hurt you.
Forgive my insecurities. Sometimes I annoy myself. I cannot imagine how much I annoy you and this frightens me.
Forgive my insecurities. My heart has been broken. I try to force myself past my fears because I do not want to be afraid, but it often doesn’t work.
Forgive my insecurities. For every success, I have ten failures.
Forgive my insecurities. I want to be the best friend I can be but there are times when I don’t make the right decisions.
Forgive my insecurities. I am stubborn and love being independent. When I lose my independence I feel weak. I hate feeling weak. This same hatred of feeling weak makes me afraid to cry.
Forgive my insecurities. For I am truly and deeply sorry. Forgive me. 

If you guys out there asking for what is my wishes 

Forgiveness is all I ask. Nothing more. I ask for forgiveness for all my failures in the past, and all my failures to come. Forgiveness for failing everyone, but myself.

Maybe …

Maybe I could have loved you better.
Maybe you should have loved me more.
Maybe our hearts were just next in line.
Maybe everything breaks sometimes.

How can time be a measure of feelings ?

How can time be a measure of feelings? When you love someone it doesn’t matter
if you’ve loved them a day, a week or a month or even a year. Feelings are feelings,
 and feelings stay.

Missing someone …

Missing someone isn’t about how long it’s been since you’ve seen them last or the
amount of time since you’ve talked. It’s about that very moment when you’re doing
something, and you wish that they were right there with you.

Everything was perfect

“ I think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish
 they could just freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today, or
still to come, whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer.
 Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop.
 The world would stop turning & people would stop changing. Because to them,
 at that time, everything was perfect. ”

It started out as a feeling

“It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
Until it was a battle cry
I’ll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say goodbye

You’ll come back when it’s over
No need to say goodbye

Now we’re back to the beginning
It’s just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can’t feel it too
Doesn’t mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
Until they’re before your eyes
You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You’ll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye ”

— The Call - Regina Spektor