You gradually get over the pain..

You gradually get over the pain.
 It doesn’t go away, not for a long time, but it becomes
easier to live with. One morning you wake up, and she’s not the
first thing on your mind. And then a few months down the line, you
realize you’ve made it through half the day without thinking of her.
 Sometimes it takes months, sometimes years, but eventually you reach a point
 when you only think about them occasionally. You manage to do this because
you don’t see them, you don’t hear about them, and you try not to think about
 them. And then you bump into them walking down the street, or someone
unexpected mentions their name and the memories come flooding back. But
memories also become less painful in time.


When you truly love someone

I didn’t lose her; I let her go. I didn’t get over her; I moved on.
When you truly love someone you never lose them or get over them, they
will always mean something to you, so no matter how hard you try if it
was true love, you’ll never forget them.

I’m sitting here all by myself ..

I’m sitting here all by myself
just tryin’ to think of something to do
Tryin’ to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it’s not working out
’cause you’re all that’s on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn’t mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn’t mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn’t mean to fall in love, but I did

And you didn’t mean to love me back, but I know you did

— Plain White T's - A lonely September

To let go …

To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about it, or ignore.
It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t
about winning or losing. It’s not about pride, and its not about how you
appear, and it’s not about obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go
isnt blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness,
hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t
about loss and it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish memories,
to overcome and move on. It is having an open mind in confidence for the
future. Letting go is learning, experiencing, and growing. To let go is
to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and
made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all
that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept
change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. It
is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy.
To let go is to open a door, to clear a path and let yourself free.

If you’re going to love me

If you’re going to love me, love me deeply. If you’re going to break my heart,
then break it all. If you’re going to care, care for me completely.
If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you’re going
to stay, then stay forever and if you want to leave, then do it today.
If you’re going to change, change for the better. And if you’re going
to talk, please mean what you say.

It’s getting so hard to be around you.

It’s getting so hard to be around you. Because every time I see you,
I see a stranger. You’ve changed, and I just miss the person you used to
be. The one that cared, the one that wouldn’t ever hurt me, not if they
could help it. But now, now all you care about is yourself. Maybe you never
did care in the first place, I’m not sure. All I know is the person I loved
so much is no longer there. Nothing is left of you. Everything’s changed,
and I miss the person you used to be.

Like a stack of dominoes …

Like a stack of dominoes, I felt the distance slowly growing between us.
And one by one, the pieces began falling, hinting the heartbreak to come.
With every day that passed we grew further and further apart, until one day
I found you gone without a trace. The pieces still continue to fall. The sad
part is that I am still here, I am still waiting, wishing and hoping you will
come around. The sad part is no matter how much I know in my heart you will
never come back, I cannot move from where I am. I am still waiting.
I am still hoping for a miracle. I am still in so deep, I can’t get out of
this one, not this time.

I pray that you’re happy

It’s not that I miss you. I just, for some reason,
keep thinking you’re going to walk through that door and
tell me that you miss me and you want me and can’t imagine your
life without me. I keep thinking you need me and you’re randomly
going to call me, IM me, or text me. I keep waiting for the moment
you’re going to man up and tell me all this, then I realize why you
haven’t done it yet because none of it’s true. You’ve moved on now,
and you’re happy. Without me.

And I pray that you’re ok.
That it’s okay.
I pray all the parts of you that I remember are still there.
I pray that you’re happy even if it’s not with me

I just want the world to slow down

I just want the world to slow down. No, I want the world to stop.
Right now. How can time just let things fall apart. Because for me,
things fall apart, and they never know how to be put back together.
Things will never be put back together. No matter how hard I try,
I know I’m going to lose you. You’re one star in a sky of a thousand,
but you’re the brightest one, and I know you’ll fade. You’ll fade until
I can’t find you anymore. I can’t find you anymore.


I’ve learned this past year ..

I’ve learned this past year. I’ve changed, I’ve grown. Maybe things do happen for a reason, maybe they don’t. But no matter what, they still happen. That’s what we need to remember. I learned to stop analyzing things, to just let them happen. And if I get hurt, or if something bad happens, then it happens. There’s nothing I can do to change that. I’ve learned to go with my gut, and that it’s okay to make mistakes because the ones that matter, won’t care. I’ve learned that love really is as great as they say it is. I’ve learned that your friends can save you from your worst enemy: yourself. And most importantly, I’ve learned that today is all we have.