Forgiveness is all I ask.

 

 

Thanks to those who hated me, you made me a stronger person
Thanks to those who loved me, you made my heart bigger
Thanks to those who envied me, you made my self esteem grow
Thanks to those who cared, you made me feel important
Thanks to those who worried, you let me know that some of you actually care
Thanks to those who left, you showed me that not everything is forever
Thanks to those who stayed, you showed me the meaning of persistence and love
Thanks to those who entered my life, you made me who I am today..
 

And 

Forgive my insecurities. I want to be perfect, but it usually doesn’t happen the way I’d like it to.
Forgive my insecurities. At times I am hypocritical and my own worst critic. I do not mean to push my expectations of myself upon you.
Forgive my insecurities. I seek affirmation because I am insecure. My life has not been easy and I do not always handle the effects of life in the best way.
Forgive my insecurities. Sometimes I do not understand the way I feel and I cannot put a name on my emotions. I just exist.
Forgive my insecurities. I was born with a certain personality and I cannot change who I am. I try to morph my faults into attributes but I often fail. I want to be cool and fun but who I am gets in the way.
Forgive my insecurities. I am human. I must deal with this fact daily. Every morning I pray I do not screw up and make a fool out of myself.
Forgive my insecurities. I have been let down and harbor a huge fear of letting you down.
Forgive my insecurities. I am a work in progress. I am always changing, attempting to become a better person, but I don’t always know who I am and where I stand.
Forgive my insecurities. I need to be loved and held. I do not mean to be clingy. Sometimes, for an unknown reason, I feel worthless and unwanted. I just want to know differently.
Forgive my insecurities. Sometimes my brain works faster then my tongue and my words don’t come out right and I feel stupid. Sometimes my tongue works faster then my brain and I say stupid things.
Forgive my insecurities. I am not very good at accurately expressing myself. Some things I do or say may come across as something other then what I mean.
Forgive my insecurities. I care very much about you but I do not want to be nosy or overbearing. I am always trying to walk the line.
Forgive my insecurities. I want to help but sometimes I end up hurting you. I do not want to hurt you.
Forgive my insecurities. Sometimes I annoy myself. I cannot imagine how much I annoy you and this frightens me.
Forgive my insecurities. My heart has been broken. I try to force myself past my fears because I do not want to be afraid, but it often doesn’t work.
Forgive my insecurities. For every success, I have ten failures.
Forgive my insecurities. I want to be the best friend I can be but there are times when I don’t make the right decisions.
Forgive my insecurities. I am stubborn and love being independent. When I lose my independence I feel weak. I hate feeling weak. This same hatred of feeling weak makes me afraid to cry.
Forgive my insecurities. For I am truly and deeply sorry. Forgive me.
 

If you guys out there asking for what is my wishes 

Forgiveness is all I ask. Nothing more. I ask for forgiveness for all my failures in the past, and all my failures to come. Forgiveness for failing everyone, but myself.

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2 responses to “Forgiveness is all I ask.

  1. You didn’t fail yourself?

    You think in the eyes of others, you’ve failed them and seek forgiveness and will seek it in the future, but to you, your insecurities are no failure, just a part of who you are. Am I right in my assessment?

    I love the honesty in what you wrote.

    You make me think. 🙂

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